Numb

This is a rant
on my self
because i hate some days
and it is terribly annoying
how i cannot write
a simple melody
but today i am down
i'm never really up
i think i just fake it
but i know that i hate it
i'm done with hiding
for now
and in the words of
a man that i don't know
fuck everything
fuck the world
but the truth is
that i am numb
and so are you
numb and touchy on the matter
but it might be better
than feeling the words
that choke me without sympathy
so i'm left on my knees
with my eyes on the floor
all the details clear to me
we are dancing all night
only to wear ourselves out
and faces sore from smiles
that don't even feel right
i don't even feel
we are all numb
aren't we?
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# Posted on Wednesday, 07 November 2007 at 1:17 AM

I Quit

You can try to run me down
But i'll keep singing
Even if it hurts you to listen
i won't be giving
up on my dream
because it is all that i have
it never occured to you
that i'm not that bad
and i try to keep it simple
so people can see through me
i turn myself into a ghost
that everyone hates to see
maybe i can't sing
and i'm clumbsy on the fret board
maybe i should quit
just pay attention you might learn or
you'll hate me even more.
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# Posted on Wednesday, 07 November 2007 at 1:15 AM

Simple Truth

i feel that this love poem
is long over due
but the trouble is
that i don't even know you
and if i cannot write my thoughts
or feelings of love
then i don't know
the one that i dream of
and i know what you think
"he doesn't dream of me"
and it is the reading of your
palm that makes me a gypsie
but no, it's not the truth
i dream of the girl now
who has always had my heart
and had worn it like a crown
despite the luster of words
the meaning is a simple truth
its not buried deep
but its that i love you
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# Posted on Wednesday, 07 November 2007 at 1:13 AM

I can't think of a title for this one

"i would pray for rain
if i thought it would help"
but that is my problem
i don't know what will
and i am in a room
full of faces i don't know
even though it seems like
i've been here since so long ago
and when it comes to a melody
i don't have one
maybe that would help
or maybe it can't be done
i think that i write too much
just a bunch of shit
none of it is good
but it's how i deal with it
my life in general
as the time passes by
nothing gets done
and i discover a new meaning
in the words that i find
to be so familiar
is not a bad thing
it's where i feel safe when i'm with a stranger
i'm tired of eating out
but i don't have a home
where i can eat
because people never return after they go
like a ghost town
with no one haunting me
not anymore
but i still dream of that city
where i can be happy
and it might rain every day
even though it wouldn't help
atleast i wouldn't have to pray
because it would just be
an awkward conversation with god
where i wouldn't know what to say
except confess that i'm a fraud
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# Posted on Thursday, 01 November 2007 at 2:57 AM

Starve For Art

if you want art
well first you gotta starve
i have learned this
over a period of hopelessness
and maybe that's why
i welcome these insults with my
eyes wide open
so i can know what i'm doin here
if i am sad
well i can sing out of my head
till i feel better
and i'll run into a cave where
all the inhabitants
hide from the light like its
some kind of fire
some kind of flame
we run and we run
till we can't run the processes
of our passionless minds
you're falling behind
but i'm falling too
no, i won't desert you
but we are so hungry and empty
that we might eat eachother
just to fill the hole
cuz the art is never there
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# Posted on Friday, 26 October 2007 at 4:55 AM