Half A Heart

i go to bed with a hunger
but i cannot kill another
it's clear that i have no talent
i guess writing poems has become a habit
that i cannot drop when i want
because they are all that i got
would you drop me down a well
if i'd keep you from going to hell?
or is there even a place
for the expression on my face
when you said to me that i
could never be alive
i am already dead to you
just a ghost passing through
your life at a slow steady pace
so slow that you're unable to trace
my steps or my thoughts
as my body rots
for you
my body rots
for you
my body rots
for you
as a ghost i am jealous
of the zombies with less
of a mind, but more of flesh
and half a heart that you could test
i'd rather die once again
than live a life of abandonment
i'd rather eat all my friends
than see our love come to an end
and i remember a time when you
held my hand till my fingers went blue
it is all over the screen
what we had once been
what we are still
and what we always will
and as i lay under these rocks
my body still rots
for you
my body rots
for you
my body rots
for you
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# Posted on Tuesday, 23 October 2007 at 2:45 AM

My Loneliness

i try to avoid the cracks in the concrete that i walk on
so that my feet won't know my world is falling apart
and a girl i don't recognize waves at me
i wave back to her out of curiosity
she smiles and drives away from my loneliness
i don't know what love is
i'm a fuck up
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# Posted on Wednesday, 17 October 2007 at 11:47 PM

Heading Out West

I'm trying to make my life better
By heading back out west
Heading to my love
I'm gunna write some tests
And be a good person
Well i miss you to death
I'm going to a college
I'm headed back out west
And i've pictured myself happy
I've pictured myself stressed
I'm gunna keep on trying
Still headed back out west
I've spent all of my money
Now i got nothing left
I'm trying to make it by
So i'm headed back out west
I've felt like giving up
But i'm doing my best
I'm headed for failure, no
I'm headed back out west
I am on the verge of tears
As i'm getting undressed
I feel myself breaking
Still headed back out west
Closing my eyes, giving up
Already depressed
I'm getting better at this
Headed back out west
I'm thinking of our past and
I think it was for the best
I'm smiling when i think of you
I'm headed back out west
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# Posted on Wednesday, 17 October 2007 at 11:41 PM

Arm Of Your Sweater

it's only when you ask these things
that i don't like how it feels
because at the time it's nice
but later you don't think it's real
and i said that i am sorry
i don't know what esle to do
i can't stop thinking of what i can't
except love you through and through
and hope that you don't leave me
for anything 'cause it's better
still i don't think i can let go
of the arm of your sweater
because it's just layer between us
and it's all that i can ask for
since i'm a fraud and a liar
but we've been here before
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# Posted on Wednesday, 17 October 2007 at 11:34 PM

MP3: Songs Of The Living Dead / Window Pain (2007)

Songs Of The Living Dead / Window Pain (2007)
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Title: Window Pain [Add this track to my blog]
Album: Songs Of The Living Dead
Year: 2007
Lyrics:
a window's pain
it's all broken glass
gone with the wind
and i'm afraid to ask
if i can kiss you
or if you love me
because how can anyone
when i'm so unloving
to myself
and to you, darling
this isn't a love song
with some vague meaning
but it's rooted too deep
to explain to you
so i won't bother
with this old news
we have talked it through
and you're still feelin' blue
down in the dirt
convinced i am untrue
well maybe i am
a fucking fake
but i don't know what to do
in this vast lake
of emotions
and thrills
of hearts breaking
and taking pills
let's kill the pain
let's kill eachother
let's fuck everything
let's hate me

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# Posted on Wednesday, 10 October 2007 at 9:46 PM
Edited on Thursday, 11 October 2007 at 1:32 AM