Faces That I Hate

when all my friends are drinking
i can feel my heart sinking
deeper down into my loneliness
since when have i hated my friends?
i don't even know them anymore
it's the poison they live for
even though it kills them
fills them up 'till their insides swim
and eventually drowned
and they pass out
so i go home completely alone
trying to drive with my shaking bones
that want to collapse
and feel the time pass
like the seconds are hours
growing steady as flowers
why the fuck do i depend on my art
to lighten the load of my heavy heart?
i guess i'm not at all who i want
to be or maybe it's just what i'm not
that keeps me going on
from dusk 'till dawn
but i'm tired of hearing from me
i don't want too look in the mirror and see
what i do
i want to see you
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# Posted on Wednesday, 07 November 2007 at 1:23 AM

Highway Of My Youth

i was born on a highway
that i would get to know so well
but i didn't know it yet
so i wasn't able to tell you the hell
that it lead me to
away from my happiness
away from the life that i once loved
the highway turned and it twisted
and we were both depressed
but i still remember when
you kept a secret from me
and i laughed then
i thought it was a trick
as we walked along the road
i didn't even know it existed
until i saw what you wrote
into your skin
and i sang a song to let myself heal
compltely oblivious to the emotions
that you would always feel
so i was thrown back onto the highway
too scared to ask for a ride
but i tried to walk back to you
and my mother, with tears in her eyes,
asked me to get in the car
and even said that she was sorry
but i was too young to know
that people don't live for me
now it's strange but i think
that i will end back out on that asphalt
and i will die there because
the past repeats its self, 'aint nobody's fault
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# Posted on Wednesday, 07 November 2007 at 1:20 AM

Numb

This is a rant
on my self
because i hate some days
and it is terribly annoying
how i cannot write
a simple melody
but today i am down
i'm never really up
i think i just fake it
but i know that i hate it
i'm done with hiding
for now
and in the words of
a man that i don't know
fuck everything
fuck the world
but the truth is
that i am numb
and so are you
numb and touchy on the matter
but it might be better
than feeling the words
that choke me without sympathy
so i'm left on my knees
with my eyes on the floor
all the details clear to me
we are dancing all night
only to wear ourselves out
and faces sore from smiles
that don't even feel right
i don't even feel
we are all numb
aren't we?
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# Posted on Wednesday, 07 November 2007 at 1:17 AM

I Quit

You can try to run me down
But i'll keep singing
Even if it hurts you to listen
i won't be giving
up on my dream
because it is all that i have
it never occured to you
that i'm not that bad
and i try to keep it simple
so people can see through me
i turn myself into a ghost
that everyone hates to see
maybe i can't sing
and i'm clumbsy on the fret board
maybe i should quit
just pay attention you might learn or
you'll hate me even more.
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# Posted on Wednesday, 07 November 2007 at 1:15 AM

Simple Truth

i feel that this love poem
is long over due
but the trouble is
that i don't even know you
and if i cannot write my thoughts
or feelings of love
then i don't know
the one that i dream of
and i know what you think
"he doesn't dream of me"
and it is the reading of your
palm that makes me a gypsie
but no, it's not the truth
i dream of the girl now
who has always had my heart
and had worn it like a crown
despite the luster of words
the meaning is a simple truth
its not buried deep
but its that i love you
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# Posted on Wednesday, 07 November 2007 at 1:13 AM

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