when all my friends are drinking
i can feel my heart sinking
deeper down into my loneliness
since when have i hated my friends?
i don't even know them anymore
it's the poison they live for
even though it kills them
fills them up 'till their insides swim
and eventually drowned
and they pass out
so i go home completely alone
trying to drive with my shaking bones
that want to collapse
and feel the time pass
like the seconds are hours
growing steady as flowers
why the fuck do i depend on my art
to lighten the load of my heavy heart?
i guess i'm not at all who i want
to be or maybe it's just what i'm not
that keeps me going on
from dusk 'till dawn
but i'm tired of hearing from me
i don't want too look in the mirror and see
what i do
i want to see you
i can feel my heart sinking
deeper down into my loneliness
since when have i hated my friends?
i don't even know them anymore
it's the poison they live for
even though it kills them
fills them up 'till their insides swim
and eventually drowned
and they pass out
so i go home completely alone
trying to drive with my shaking bones
that want to collapse
and feel the time pass
like the seconds are hours
growing steady as flowers
why the fuck do i depend on my art
to lighten the load of my heavy heart?
i guess i'm not at all who i want
to be or maybe it's just what i'm not
that keeps me going on
from dusk 'till dawn
but i'm tired of hearing from me
i don't want too look in the mirror and see
what i do
i want to see you